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DEARLY BELOVED MOTHER

The clock is ticking for another chapter of my day,

Every minute, every hour is an exciting moment for me,

For in my heart rings a bell of happiness,

As I look upon myself in the future of fulfilling my failed promises.

You taught me everything to survive,

In my daily struggles, I can face anyone with nothing to hide,

I surely miss the encouragement words of advice,

From the greatest mother who has given me her wisdom my prize.

I deeply regret, I ignored your constant pleadings,

God knows I really didn’t mean to hurt your feelings,

Yet, in your remaining days you’ve been longing for someone to see,

I have just known lately that person to be me.

I am wishing of seeing you again,

My dear Mama Susing, my mentor, my friend,

I could not ask God for anything more,

Just to see you in every dream is what I am only asking for.

I may have failed to grant all your wishes,

As I am just an ordinary person with no wealth to possess,

I cannot promise you anything that I may fail again to give,

But my undying love for you I am asking you to believe,

Goodbye dearly beloved mother, be free to leave this world,

Your living legacy will be known, but has already been told,

I cherish all the memories you have left behind with us,

But you must go on to your plight with my father you truly love and trust.

REY 03/29/2009

TRIBUTE TO A VERY DEAR FRIEND

Life is full of mystery, keeping us all wondering,

We may be God’s total likeness, yet he allows people to die suffering,

Perhaps it’s worth to know why he let all these things to happen,

A query ‘til this day left unanswered by our own creator in heaven.

Losing someone I dearly love is a difficult thing to take,

The whole world seemed to fall on me, every single day I’m feeling weak.

I couldn’t ask anyone for comfort to lessen my grief

I am forced to keep it inside, and bear it for myself.

My life’s no longer easy without you,

Now that you are gone I left no choice, but to keep thinking of you,

I miss the days that you were here with us,

To the long and winding road of uncertainty, but in God we always trust.

If there is only a way to bring you back,

I will do without any hesitation at all, admittedly impossible to act,

I will never regret to trade anything I have in this world,

Just to have you back is much more enough than gold.

Farewell my friend, my dear beloved father,

Continue on to your journey to the place you will always be remembered,

Our hearts are broken by letting you go,

But God almighty is already there waiting for you. 

 REY 09/28/08

G -ladly I count the days when you beloved will be here

    My heart sings with joy and beats pitter-a-patter

   If I could only make father time go faster and faster

   Then I would turn the clock for an early NOVEMBER..

I - n the stillness of the night I keep on wondering

   What fate has in store for us as I lay in bed tossing?

   Would I be what I have dreamed, anxiety fills my being

   For I am only me, with nothing worthwhile offering

L - oving you as much as I do, I wish you to know

   You light up my life—my whole being thro’ and thro’

   Believe me, you are the only one-which will show

   That my thoughts, my prayers, my dreams are solely for you…

D - ear heart, altho’ bereft of wealth and riches

   My love and devotion will eclipse what I don’t possess

   I will not promise you the moon, the stars-impossible to reach

   But my undying love-ever true, ever faithful leading to bliss

A - nd so with fervent hopes—that when we meet

   My pledge of love, I will lay down your feet

   Songs of love I will give—what my tongue can’t speak

   For when the heart is full the mouth is speechless and bleak… 

REY ‘87

My first few days in the famous land of pies and apples were full of excitements. I thought at first it was just some kind of a dream, but I woke up, and realized everything turned out to be real. Like other new comers from all sides of the globe, it’s a common scenario to see people carrying cameras either in malls, shrines, parks and etc…

Admittedly, I was one of them. I knew I looked like a jerk, and it really freaked me out. However, I also had to take into consideration, I was completely a stranger in this place; everything was new to me. It took a long time of adjustments, and got acquainted with my new environment.

Days became months; months into years, and I started to feel the emptiness inside of me. I feel something’s missing. I’m longing to see my family back home– my beloved mother, brothers and sisters. I miss my best friend who happened to be my father, but sad to say he’s already in the place where pain no longer exists. God must have had a reason why he took back his borrowed life that soon. He must have been one short of an angel and in dire need of him.

I also miss the camaraderie of long time buddies I haven’t seen for quite a while; like Raul Evangelista, Joy Layan, Benny Daclan and my 3 kumpadres, Molo Daclan, Abloy Erames and Dewey Laspoña, Luis Espina,Nardo Dacuyan, Edwin Taboada, Nilo Evangelista, Dodong Evangelista, Nathan Cavada, the Tan bros– Victanny Jones, Beboy and Dodong Tan. I wish I can write all their names, but I don’t have enough space to do it.

I guess, there’s already a lot of changes in Toledo; considering the long number of years I have stayed here in the U.S.– Borbon which I considered my second home plays an important role in my life. I never thought I would eventually love the place. It’s small, quiet, and peaceful which was totally different from the place where I was raised.

However, I’ve also found new friends who were kind, helpful, and honest too. I started building up myself by hanging out with friends from neighboring barrios like Ilihan,kaguyong,and Sagay.There’s really no place like home. Cebu is still the best place for me, more than any place in this world.

My recent trip this year’s the most memorable one.Yes indeed it’s a memorable one– as I didn’t expect to find the missing page of the book that I had once written. It encouraged me to add a new chapter again, to fulfill the long time promise of finishing the unforgotten story.